Sunday, April 17, 2011

And it's April.

"April," Amy Damone declared. "Is the most important month for a Meredith girl. No one else understands but those who are there."

And oh, how right she is. This month has been one of the most stressful (Convocations! Cap and gown purchases! Chord ordering! Wow, these are a lot of "C" things...), sad (a lot of "last's" are coming up for the seniors), and hectic (all I'm saying is who assigns a fifteen page paper in seminar? In the last month? When you're already ready to collapse? I ask you again, readers, WHO DOES THAT?!). But, in the midst of all of the craziness, I am finding little gems:

1) I'm finding that my parentals are pretty freaking great. They're starting to say things like, "When you move to L.A," and "When we find you, Syd, and Kathleen an apartment..." I think they're starting to realize that Kiki Subrawoman has a plan, a vision, a need for adventure, and a thirst to make it happen. I've been talking to my mom a lot more, and I'm finding that we actually have a lot in common in terms of how her mindset was in college. And I'm beginning to feel a lot more reassured.

2) It's okay to let people go sometimes. It sucks, that's for damn sure. But sometimes I look at how truly amazing my real friends are versus the ones who, well, just haven't been around. I see how different they are. This April has shown me that my fabulous friends really outdo themselves: from the e-mails, calls, texts, reassurances, and the constant, "Oh my God, you're going to be excellent in whatever you do!" it seriously makes me teary. I'm so grateful. Then I look at the ones who are the exact opposite. And then I realize that instead of focusing on the ones that aren't so great, I have the right to focus on the ones that are. And, as the always-wise Amy tells me, "You deserve great friends. Go getchu some."

3) Reconnecting with old friends is the best feeling in the world. I think my last semester has been fifty times better because of it.

4) It's perfectly okay to have an addiction to coffee, to the point where you have a myriad of mugs stashed in your car. I mean, really. I'm allowed a vice. I don't smoke. I work out (er...not as regularly right now, but I'm a senior, so whatever). I smile at cute children when walking by them. I deserve an addiction.

5) The best is yet to come. Cliche? Totally. The realization that this is absolutely true? Profound.

6) It's okay to use vindictiveness as motivation. There's always going to be people who doubt you. What I'm finding is that I'm going to use that to set my working soul on fire and prove them wrong. And then laugh and do cartwheels in my bright blue and yellow kitchen when I am successful.

7) I will find the perfect graduation dress. :)

Alright, April. Let's do this...

1 comment:

  1. i love this. and you.

    keep that head up and those pearly whites shining. you are going to kick ass at everything you set your mind to. i believe in you!

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